It's been awhile ....

Seems like foreve since I wrote a blog... for the last time I wrote a post was back in September ... 😞

I don't know how many times I've been doubting and overthinking about me and William.

I mean... I don't know ...

I really don't want to end up talking to him about my doubts, and suddenly end up ending this before Christmas ... 

I've talked to Ellen about this, and she has pointed out that this was more of a summer fling. Since the fact that he and I talked more and spent more time together over the summer.

And that, William is like those guys who, after getting the girl, they no longer try anymore .... 

I know that I should be trying in working this out, but it's hard when I tend to overthink and believe that I'm just bothering him if I did start trying..... 

Aigoo.... I honestly feel like crying inside 

I really need help, like seriously...

But who would help me when the people I want help from don't like him? and those I talk to for help, don't know him...

I'm in an fuckin' rut and have no idea what I'm doing...